Knock, knock. Who's there? -You're there.

Livejournal does something to me.

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 06:50:26 GMT

Or I just feel so different with it! I reread all my xanga posts, and for some reason they just sounded so much happier! haha. I think i should go back there.

im not gonna do what i really wanna do.

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 06:30:48 GMT

feel like such a nerd wearing glasses again. had them at the beginning of the year, actually since a year ago, stopped wearing them because i wasn't into the nerd feel anymore. haha. and now here i am again.
my optometrist wanted me to wear them all the time during classes, so i figure it's okay if i wear them at other times too. :) like right now.
still haven't finished my english essay. on the bright side, just 3 little paragraphs. if it were all five, i'd be bawling right now. i'm a baby )=
i wanna go shopping, there's just so much fun in that.
tomorrow, the hannah montana movie comes out. guess who's excited! guess :)
i;m not gonna see it, but i just think that's cool how it's coming out. i love the show.
let's see, i actually have a lot of busy time during this break. sad, i'm gonna miss lounging around doing nothing. but i guess i'll just finish early, so i can do that :) i love doing that.
they give me a headache, so i took them off. )= i hate how i haven't worn glasses in awhile. so now it's gonna feel new all over again, and that's just uncomfortable for me.
okay, in five minutes i must write one more paragraph of my essay. the conclusion is always the easiest.
not true, but i'd love to make myself feel better. hey hey hey. the glasses made me less sleepy :)
it's cool how the only homework i have is english! :) and biology but i did most of it in class, because i'm a nerd.
i wanted to use family guy as a mask for my essay, which is about society's masks, but it was just too much of a hassle to have to identify every single episode title & generate all that. i'd have to pinpoint exactly the segment i'd want to use, and look for it, and so on. so i resorted to soldier's instead :) they're good and everything, they're supporting the country, but they kill. and that's what i'm pinpointing.
i'll never be able to grasp the concept of death, i don't think. and failure. i just won't believe i failed, because i don't know why. haha.
sometimes i feel like there are two different people in me. the person that encapsulates the way i act, and the person who dominates my mind which is what i really want to do. and it's scary, maybe it's just normal but they always feel so different. i wonder why.

high school musical 3 was really great.

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 02:38:52 GMT

maybe i'm biased, because of how much i love the high school musical trilogy. but for some reason i can't get it out of my head.
and i'm here stuck contemplating about it, and it's so weird because what is there to think about?
i have to read a lot, but i haven't been.

MOSQUITO MASK,

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 04:05:04 GMT

CUTE, CUTE, CUTE. :)
And that's why I'm going to start watching Sailor Moon live action! Yes, yes, yes.
When did I become so into this kinda stuff? Anyway, we went to Target just now. And I just realized that it was an hour ago that we left. And We've been back for about 20 minutes. It's so strange how things can change so fast and easily. 8 o'clock i'm waking up from a nap, and two minutes later i'm in a car, 10 minutes later i'm at target, and before the hour ends i'm home.
I'm going to wikipedia him. I can not stand surprises, but I love them.

So I haven't blogged in so freaking long.

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 20:26:38 GMT

And I'm back! =) Kinda sorta? Um, I'm going to homework center for history in an hour. I didn't wanna stay during seventh. Kind of intimidating, I guess. That would mean 5 straight hours! Haha. Weeeeeird. Anyway, I have lots of homework today.
And yes, all of it is history.
And I'd have the entire day off if only I wasn't going back in an hour.
Today as the Holocaust survivor was speaking, I kept blanking out. But he was a very nice man, and I can't believe it was two hours that he spoke.
Let's see, grades are closing in like 2 weeks, and I'm so scared of getting a B in history. D:
So I have to cram my ass off this weekend for my Mock AP . DDDDD:
And yeah, i'm gonna try and cram chapters 1-34 within that time. But it'll be more like 25 chapters.
I always say that I'll cram, But I don't, and I know I should.
So I will , right? :)
For some reason I'm always wanting to read the China chapters, but not just because they're asian. haha.
Anyway, I feel really happy. Just because :)
And I love love love happy days like these.
Oh and I have 1 Follower on Twitter. I just have no fucking idea who that person is, it's cool though. haha.
Shopping has been on my mind.

suddenly i felt like blogging!

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 04:07:55 GMT

unfortunately, i don't have anything to talk about.
I found these cute sandals that I want :) But I'm sort of putting myself on a noshoebuying ban, and it's really hard to resist but i'm trying my best. )=
i think i'm gonna crack. and i bet you knew i was going to. i'm too predictable.
I've gotta finish Spanish and Biology and English. I think I should go. )=

IDSfhsohfs

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 07:13:34 GMT

I really want to learn how to swim, but I have this incredibly overwhelming fear of drowning that I don't plan to get over.

So i think i figured something out.

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 02:25:17 GMT

in 5 or 10 years, I'm either going to look back at myself and laugh for thinking that drawn characters are hot, or I'm still going to think they're hot.
DORK DORK DORK DORK.
I watched the kids choice awards today :) But I don't think it was entirely age appropriate? It was weird, for a KIDS choice awards! haha.
Anyway i wish i had gone to Battle.
the new chapter for naruto is once again, amazing.
the chapters with pein and sasuke always are, but i just realized if they were BOTH in ONE chapter, ID DIEEEEEE.
If they died it'd break my heart !
oh fuck, i forgot to watch Mulan )= YAY, it's still on! and another one is playing. YAY.
YAYAYAYAYAY. oh and Friday was a good day, people ate my muffins and rice krispies and that was absolutely delightful. and we got to play paddle tennis in PE, for some reason i have strong passions for things i'm completely untalented in.
i don't think i've ever watched Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. IVE GOTTA WATCH THAT SOON, i love Disney princess movies :)
i'm afraid to go to school, because my history teacher is back, and as awesome as she is, i'm afraid to go to class because of her. no school tuesday!
we have this packet of review for biology, and i realized how i've completely forgotten semester one of biology. I mean it'd be easy if my teacher made it easy, but she wants us to write reasons for NOT choosing the other 3 answers out of 4? that's 180 reasons why not. and a lot of hand cramping.
my english grade is dying, sad because english is like my favorite. I keep bombing the reading and vocabulary quizzes!
Whatever, whatever, Whatever, I'll just ace the next one hopefully.
I remember watching Mulan for the first time in Theatres, which i still can't pronounce correctly without trying too hard. And I thought it was absolutey wonderful.
Tarzan and Mulan get me really teary!
I want a haircut. But i have like, six inches of waiting time to go. tough luck D:
hmm my parents are going out tomorrow, but i don't know what i want them to get me. Seriously, Judy is sick of fast food? Haha. I think it's because today I baked this cake thingy, and I'm sort of sick of unhealthy foods right now. I always splurge on weekends, why can't i eat healthily?
Yay, aladdin just started!
i've been twittering more than i blog, which makes me feel like a loser because i have 0 followers and 0 following on Twitter. I should just drown my sorrows in shopping again.
Tons and tons of homework this weekend, I think. I'm drowning.
it'll just feel so weird to be at home on tuesday, just how random is that? seriously.
and the next day i'll have to run in the heat. please tell me why it's just so hot today.
my computer is burning my lap.
lately i don't know what i've been doing with my life, pretty much nothing. i'm so boring, so bored, and i just have got to find something to do.

Seriously

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 23:09:01 GMT

what an ugly morning I had.
:)
Anyway, math homework, biology homework, history homework that should have been done last last monday, and English shit. Wow, i'm awesome.
I want to go shopping.

real love.

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 05:26:07 GMT

edward cullen,
is so fucking hot.

I woke up feeling rushed today.

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 05:25:42 GMT

so i was pissed. HAHA, but i think days like those signal all around good days.
minimum block days are this week, i'm gonna miss these ttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssssss much )=
and i did well on my biology quiz. YAY. i'm doing better in biology than any other class. seriously.

Better than blogging

Thu, 19 Mar 2009 07:50:59 GMT

twitter.com/jukidym

:)

I dont know why I have a blog

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 00:34:33 GMT

Especially since I have absolutely nothing to talk about.

I CANT STOP THINKING.

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 06:51:23 GMT

I have begun WORLD HISTORY! =) I finished Chapter 1. And as you can see, I've stopped.
I can't sleep because I can't stop thinking. Nothing in particular, it's just that I have a surge of thoughts formulating and they won't stop coming. Sometimes I don't even know what they are, but they're there and that scares me. I just wanna think them so they'll go away. But I guess, and I'm hoping, they're too significant to lose.
Kinda like people.

Please read.

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 23:18:19 GMT

Please read about this very nice man, if you haven't already.
http://www.walletpop.com/blog/2009/03/13/boston-hospital-staff-shows-big-heart/
People like him give hope to this world, and I'm so so so so so grateful for it.
Take that society.

Okay so

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 22:49:34 GMT

The chapter 30 test was easy shmeeeezy. If I had skimmed the chapter over like I should have, instead of just going over the parts I didn't read, I would have aced it! Too bad. Because the ones I missed where directly out of the book, which is gonna be the case for the other ones I'm gonna miss that I don't know of yet. Obsessive compulsive, I had to check the answers right after we turned in the tests.
Algebra quiz was easy! thank goodness for those workbook pages, my teacher let us use them during the quiz and it really helped during the last question. I was worried, but it all worked out. :)
5 Chapters for me today, if I can manage. But i'm actually sleepy, I stayed up doing nothing last night and I'm sad because I woke up this morning late, first of all, and realizing i forgot to turn the dryer on. so my clothes were wet, and i had to dry them. and it just angered me.
english debates: do humans corrupt society or does society corrupt humans?
Option 1, you're a winner.
I think that people who choose option two are likely people who refuse to accept blame, or are always looking for someone to blame. So, which one do you pick?
Be warned, if you tell me your choice I will absolutely judge you based on it.
Looking at the side of the room who chose the second choice, I kinda got more into their personality i think, or I guess i can say that about the people who actually went up and debated. my teacher didnt pick me, im sure its because i'm quiet and he doubted id put up a good argument. i guess that's a good thing, but sad. haha. x]
anyway, option 2 is full of materialism. someone said that society sets standards that you have to follow. you work in a company and you need to lay people off to keep YOUR salary, because society says so.
And i disagreed completely. that one really got me fidgeting in my seat. Completely selfish and materialistic. just last night my sister told me about this guy, he was head of a hospital. they needed to lay people off, so he called an entire staff meeting. rather than lay anyone off, he requested that the ones who were going to stay take pay cuts and lose their bonuses. they applauded him. and i'm so damn proud. people like you will go to heaven :)
anyway, just really made me think about the way people were thinking in that scenario. i love english.
i'd also like to talk about how much undeserving you filthy cheaters are. i refuse to ever succumb to such low standards of achievement.
i can't stop thinking about it. the english thing, not the cheating.
really, i can't believe that someone can think so horribly. i can't believe that people think it's all society's fault. we're blaming our own inanimate creation for the perfection we failed to achieve. how can you say that it's not our fault? how can you just say that we're not the ones to blame? Maybe that's what makes us American; we think we're too good so we refuse to accept anyone else. or maybe i'm being too regional; it's because we're human that we refuse to be good people.
Well I refuse to be human.

Of course, of course, of course

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 01:21:55 GMT

I didn't read ANY history chapters, and I had an entire weekend. )= Well, I'm definitely not gonna read a million in one day. Tomorrow I'm going to do the first five chapters. That's time period one for history, so at least I'll have nailed it down. (=
We haven't had any serious essays in awhile, and that worries me! D:
Well, I took an online quiz for Chapter 30, because I've already read it and everything, so I don't really feel like rereading it. But I'm probably going to have to reread a bunch of sections, because I didn't get any perfect scores on any of the three quizzes I took. D:
Well, I get the gist. HAHAHA. THERE'S THIS FUNNY PARODY OF THE HILLS, and that was in it. And it's just funny. :)
Tomorrow's the day. We run the mile. And if I fail I might as well be tripping into my grave.
So on a less relevant tangent, I want new boots. )= My feet are deprived!
Not seriously though.
So does anyone else out there think the new Hannah Montana Movie is adorable? :) I'd love to go see it.
I think I'd need to see High School Musical 3 first though. I can not mention enough how much I love those movies. nobody seems to understand.
I'm going to make a study plan. :)
Okay, I made it. And it's not so bad! because I just realized that the test is on Thursday and not Tuesday. :) I gave myself six chapters over the weekend though. Sad. And I didn't squeeze in powerpoints! )= My plan is flawed. FUCK. HAHAHA.
Well, I only study straight from the book anyway. :) And That's how I take my tests, it helps for the majority of the questions. =)
Thank goodness for today, because I only have one chapter to kinda sorta study. =) Plus all of the notes Ms Mohan made us take in class.
Anyway, school is boring, it's keeping my life active.
I beat Earthbound, with occasional help from an online walkthrough. I'm playing FFVI right now. I wonder if I've ever mentioned how much I absolutely love, love, love the Final Fantasy series. Anyway, I didn't have as much homework as I thought, unless my biology thingy will actually take all that long. It's like origami! :)

Stupid girl.

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 21:02:54 GMT

Should have done her homework Friday night, so Sunday could be nice and free.
It's 2 and I haven't completed my homework yet. I haven't even started, although I did start some of it in class but it's because I didn't finish that it's homework. So in that way, I haven't even started.
We went to Costco today, and I love free samples! :) My mom let me get the Starbucks thingys, too, SO IM HAPPY.
We're running the mile tomorrow. )=
So, we have this big cumulative 1-27 chapter test next week. )= that means I have 9 days to study. I think. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. That's only 6. D: 27 chapters read within six days. wish me luck. I think I'm going to break up the chapters I read by area and region. Haha, so i guess I'm doing Asian first. =) But that's 5 chapters a day! Hate my life.
But on the bright side, at least I'll be able to say I read the chapters before the AP test comes. (= Sadly, the only chapters I'm knowledgeable about in any which way are the World War chapters, and those aren't on the test. I'm sad. I'm sad, I'm sad and depressed.
I hate people who use me. I'm starting to realize who really cares, who really is just using me, who really is only into themselves, and I'm glad that each day I become aware. I'm less childish than i was before, kinda sorta right?

BEST. CHAPTER. EVER

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 22:35:14 GMT

Okay, overstatement! But I think that almost every week's chapter is the best ever, honestly :) no matter how much bashing they get.

I have had blogger's block. :)

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 02:52:24 GMT

Kinda, sorta.
I'm so nervous to grade our history tests! Especially from everything that I've heard. I've missed my history teacher, actually. so nice. I miss her yelling at us. Motivation x]
Anyway, I have to read the history chapter that I should have read a week or two ago, and then do some little things for biology. 6 pages of bio compared to 20 pages of history!
i had a feeling my english teacher would make us go in order for these skits we had to do, and we did! He was like, random order! on schoolloop, but it did make sense for him to go chronologically. he gave us a 97 =) Yay. if only my other grades could make up for it, I'd have a great grade in that class. sad.
we were a coca cola company ! :D so chau brought us coke, and we got to drink it. mine lost gas around break though! haha.
okay, so for those same skits, this girl i knew but wasn't really familiar with asked if she could borrow my dress. well her group did, cause we didnt know each other, and i said yes but i was uncomfortable with it. so the next day i told them i couldnt anymore. i felt bad though! really bad, it was just a dress. but after watching their skit today, i realized she wouldn't have fit in with my dress. it was better with what she wore. it was just really awkward that i happened to be wearing that on Monday and she asked for it, the clothes right off my back? haha.
I've been getting sleep earlier and earlier. lately i've been getting all the sleep in the world. yesterday i was sleepy at 8 i think! But i couldnt sleep because of my laundry. so i didnt sleep until 11 )=
today will be later, because i dont plan on doing history until 9 or 10, haha.
algebra is getting sort of difficult now. logarithms are killing me. but my teacher was nice and postponed a quiz we would have had friday since the last section of chapter 7 was all crazy. haha. x]
im back into earthbound. and im going to play it now.

Everything was so shitty today.

Mon, 09 Mar 2009 21:51:06 GMT

I was so glad when I got home. there was nothing more that I wanted. I honestly think I am developing a phobia of people.
People are just so inconsiderate. I am a person, correct? So I classify under 'people' hopefully, and that also makes me inconsiderate. But I try. And I'll just take this opportunity to complain things that I may or may not be guilty of.
People were just horrible today.
First of all, I feel like they're using me. for what I have, for what they need. And that's just the worst. It makes me feel like i'm good for nothing. absolutely nothing. and i wonder if they've ever felt like that. when i feel like that, i act like i did today. i was so lonely. i just wanted to be home, where i didnt have to be around anyone. stay by myself in my room and do whatever the fuck i want, which is basically nothing.
i'm alone, alone, alone. and i'm sorry to be so selfish, i wonder how other people who are alone feel.
there are a lot of bad feelings in this world, but the one that i always feel is worst is loneliness. the thing is, if i felt any other feeling as frequently, then i'd say that one was worst. So they're all bad, but the amount you experience it makes it worse.
and i just wish i had known what i know now, sooner. i wish i hadn't given up or given in. i wish i had just let everything be.
I JUST WANNA BE. HAHAHAH. Family Guy, okay? :)
Anyway, I hate how I'll bring something up about a TV show or some shit, and everyone will act like they know all about it. Fucking know it all. I'm always afraid of what to say, because of the reaction or response I will receive. I'm always doing the wrong things, but I can't say much better for everyone else. I guess I just have this picture in my head. And i wish i could make that picture reality. It's not as selfish as I am, I promise.
Taking, taking, Taking.
And I'm tired of giving, giving, giving, giving.

I'm pretty conceited

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 22:07:33 GMT

Because I think that I'm smarter than a lot of people.
Okay, in my own defense, these people do things that are so fucking stupid. So I know when I'm smarter than someone, and I know when they're smarter than me. That's fair, right?
Well, it pisses me off like crazy when they act like they're so much better than me. I guess I live with knowing that they're fucking idiots, because I know when they're wrong but they act like such know it alls.
To be honest, this blog is directed at someone. I doubt that person will read this. But actually, I guess it's directed to multiple people who don't know how to accept that some people in this world have a superior intellect, and maybe I could be one of them.
People treat me like I'm such a fucking dumbass. But I'm not. To their credit, I play dumb in some cases to avoid learning the truth.
And they're too fucking stupid to read between the lines. Stupid people don't piss me off. People that are stupid who think they aren't? those do.
I just would love to punch them. But even if you correct them, they'll make fun of you for sounding like a smartass and best of all, they won't believe their wrong.
I guess it's okay, that's the way they are. But to think, in ten years what if i'm still surrounded by these people? I can't stand people treating me like I'm an idiot, treating me like they're better than me.
I just want everyone to be the same, you know? I know that I'm ranting about how I'm smarter than these people, but I'd really like for it to not matter. I just wish they didn't act like theyre better. But modesty isn't in everyone, I guess.
I think I'll stop playing dumb. I'll just accept what everyone says without putting forth my own contention.
I think I'm happy, because I'm so introverted, with living as the only person who knows some things about myself. To know that someone else is wrong but they refuse to accept that, I'm okay with being the only one.
This blog is full of self centered, pointless shit. and i'm actually sorry that this is the way I think, but I really needed to get that out there.
And people who read this blog probably wouldn't believe me. I don't fucking care. Just live with knowing this is how I feel.

Good news, everyone!

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 02:09:06 GMT

So, if you've ever watched Futurama, I hope the title of this blog rings a bell. Professor Farnsworth, anyone? (= I love that show. I haven't seen it in awhile though, years upon years I'm assuming.
Budget cut sort of gathering at Cougar Hall today, and unfortunately I'm not there.
I'm sorry that I didn't go, even though sports aren't my thing, I think it'd be right to go to support it for the sake of everyone else.
Stay for homework center today. My teacher was angry we didn't bring our books. Some of us, that is. x: Some of us refers to me.
Oh and the good news was that I found these cute boots I wanted, and I was going to ask my mom to order them today. But they don't have my size anymore. My feet are hugeeee.
I've met a boy with the same shoe size as me. Strangely enough, his feet look small on him. On me, they are ginormous. But on him, I was like, Wow! you have tiny feet!
:)
New issue of Seventeen today! I love looking at the dresses. :) I should have brought the Prom issue :/ Nothing's funner than prom dresses.
Oh, more news! So, i thought it was a sign that I was given so much time on my monologue. And in the comments, my teacher said that it could have been more practiced. x: I'm ashamed.
Anyway, more good news: I'm going to be Minnie Mouse for Halloween. :) which is on a Saturday this year.
My teacher was angry at us, so he made us run in the rain. and my hair was shit all day. I am ashamed.
I only have to study for PE and math homework today. Logarithms were so confusing, but I hope I'll be better at them today. Yay for Algebra teachers.
I could never pull off being an Algebra teacher, because I've noticed that Algebra is hard to learn for some people. And I'm the type of person who can not understand what is incomprehensible about something once it's been explained. So yeah, I'm pretty much a bitch.
An impatient bitch.
I spelled that in Spanish again x:
I'm back into listening to boy bands again. I'm going to download a bunch of songs from bands I already know, and learn every single lyric. Not today, though. I'm too fucking lazy. It pisses me off when I don't know the lyrics.
I was reading about Adolf Hitler's mistress, Eva Braun. It was really interesting.
I remember in the summer, I think, Will Smith said something about Adolf Hitler, and it put him in some sort of good light. And everyone was mad at him for that, like he was a stupidass or something, or he was a Hitler supporter. But I think people have good intentions in some sort of light, not necessarily for the majority, and maybe that's what he meant.
not that I support the Holocaust, genocide, or all the killing and crimes and such of any sort. Completely against that.
I'm a pacifist :)

It's funny:

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 08:21:19 GMT

Yesterday, I blogged about how my brother doesn't sleep here anymore. Tonight, he is.
I'm not ready for school tomorrow. I think I should prolong sleeping as much as possible, because when I wake up I'll have to go.
And my monologue isn't memorized. Still. I've had two weeks now to do it, and it's still not done. Hate how much I procrastinate, especially after I said I wasn't going to anymore.
Tomorrow's a new day, I'll try again. But I have to stay after school tomorrow, for a really long time. )= So I have all of seventh period to do my homework. Let's hope I accomplish something this time.
I'm sleepy, but I didn't get out of bed until 1 today. I'm going to try to not nap tomorrow. Instead, I'll sleep early because I will have had to finish my homework. :]
3 more questions of history. Forget about reading chapter 30. I'll save it for later.
I have an opportunity to improve my grade this Friday. A chapter 28 test. =) And since it's only one chapter, that's a big, huge, yay.
:)
I'm going to homework center tomorrow. I need to review the history chapters. and I'm going to have 4 books to carry tomorrow. what the fuck )=
maybe I'll just leave history behind.
One more question to go, yay. :] i'll be in bed before 2 tonight. Yay.
I'm not gonna completely memorize the monologue. too much work that i'm not willing to put in effort for. I just know a sort of large majority of it. And I'll practice tonight. I hate my procrastination.
I can't say that enough.
Well I have some really emotional rants I'd like to write, but I don't have time.
I'm probably gonna write them anyway, but I'm going to try to put it off and focus on my homework!
Haha, i sort of can't wait for school tomorrow. I think it's because I love when it's over. Each week that ends is one week closer to the Exam though.

My saturday was boring as hell.

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 07:49:06 GMT

Highlight of my Saturday 28 February 2009?
:)
I got mail from more colleges today, more info shit and all. And my little brother came in and brought me two letters I received today. Then he was like, AND THIS ONE WAS WEIRD! and he took one he was hiding behind his back or whatever, and he was like, it says ms! you're not even married, and they called you ms! this one is weird.
KIDS ARE SO CUTE!
:) he doesn't sleep here anymore. he says i'm too mean )=